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Real life update/quest for quiet
Random Note: Sorry for the sudden radio-silence, real life got into the way
I didn't get accepted at either of the apprenticeship places. I'm pretty disappointed about the place I really liked, but at least my friend did get that place, which is always better than some random stranger! In the mean while I've been invited to an interview with another place which I really liked the sound of as well, so I'm not out of options or anything.
So... I now have a minor Youth and Delinquency (I'm pretty sure). The exam went great. It had open questions and I could answer just about all of them, so I'm not worried. We handed in our paper on Friday and I'm pretty sure that one turned out very good as well. One of the girls I worked with was great and between the two of us we wrote a pretty great paper. The paper wasn't really due until Friday next week, BUT. But finishing it now means one thing and one thing alone: I have a full week of vacation coming up! :D
So yesterday and today I sat outside, enjoyed the fact that we had the most gorgeous weather one can wish for in April, got my first sunburn, caught up with my f-list, watched the new Doctor Who episode (Matt Smith is awesome as the doctor, unexpectedly so actually. Karen makes a great companion and a very, very fun character and HELL she's hot. I think I liked last weeks ep better, but that's just me...) printed, put together, drew over and cut out the e-patterns I bought for the regency-era dress I 'm going to sew (or, more correctly, the underwear for said dress), helped my mom with gardening and just generally really, really enjoyed myself.
On the topic of medication:
I've switched back from 54 mg to 36 mg Concerta.
- I felt like the heavier meds were doing less rather than more. Like I was more or less back where I started.
- Monday I had an experience that was... Less than pleasant. Scary is probably a much better word. Basically it felt like all the sounds, colours, movements, thoughts and everything else was enhanced to an intolerable level, like they were all hammering their way into my head without check. I ended up on my bed in fetal position, crying, fingers in my ears and eyes tightly shut, trying to get away from it all. Suffice to say that I got nothing done in terms of studying or anything else that day.
- I wasn't concentrating again but if I was, I was hyperfocussing, so concentrating so hard that the rest of the world disappears. That's what I did on sunday, when I worked on a paper for over 6 hours without a break or anything.
- The days that I had things to do that I was very nervous for (Friday with the interviews, Wednesday with my exam) the meds did do their job.
- Others also noticed I'd gotten more hyper again, talking faster and louder, being more overwhelming
So I called my doctor and discussed it with him, and he said it's probably because of the meds. See, concerta is basically an alternation of cocaine and while it works very well to fire up the inactive minds of people with ADHD, taking to much means your brain actually gets too active and gives a similar effect as ADHD. I'm taking the 36 mg now and I really feel good. More calm, but not overly so.
I didn't get accepted at either of the apprenticeship places. I'm pretty disappointed about the place I really liked, but at least my friend did get that place, which is always better than some random stranger! In the mean while I've been invited to an interview with another place which I really liked the sound of as well, so I'm not out of options or anything.
So... I now have a minor Youth and Delinquency (I'm pretty sure). The exam went great. It had open questions and I could answer just about all of them, so I'm not worried. We handed in our paper on Friday and I'm pretty sure that one turned out very good as well. One of the girls I worked with was great and between the two of us we wrote a pretty great paper. The paper wasn't really due until Friday next week, BUT. But finishing it now means one thing and one thing alone: I have a full week of vacation coming up! :D
So yesterday and today I sat outside, enjoyed the fact that we had the most gorgeous weather one can wish for in April, got my first sunburn, caught up with my f-list, watched the new Doctor Who episode (Matt Smith is awesome as the doctor, unexpectedly so actually. Karen makes a great companion and a very, very fun character and HELL she's hot. I think I liked last weeks ep better, but that's just me...) printed, put together, drew over and cut out the e-patterns I bought for the regency-era dress I 'm going to sew (or, more correctly, the underwear for said dress), helped my mom with gardening and just generally really, really enjoyed myself.
On the topic of medication:
I've switched back from 54 mg to 36 mg Concerta.
- I felt like the heavier meds were doing less rather than more. Like I was more or less back where I started.
- Monday I had an experience that was... Less than pleasant. Scary is probably a much better word. Basically it felt like all the sounds, colours, movements, thoughts and everything else was enhanced to an intolerable level, like they were all hammering their way into my head without check. I ended up on my bed in fetal position, crying, fingers in my ears and eyes tightly shut, trying to get away from it all. Suffice to say that I got nothing done in terms of studying or anything else that day.
- I wasn't concentrating again but if I was, I was hyperfocussing, so concentrating so hard that the rest of the world disappears. That's what I did on sunday, when I worked on a paper for over 6 hours without a break or anything.
- The days that I had things to do that I was very nervous for (Friday with the interviews, Wednesday with my exam) the meds did do their job.
- Others also noticed I'd gotten more hyper again, talking faster and louder, being more overwhelming
So I called my doctor and discussed it with him, and he said it's probably because of the meds. See, concerta is basically an alternation of cocaine and while it works very well to fire up the inactive minds of people with ADHD, taking to much means your brain actually gets too active and gives a similar effect as ADHD. I'm taking the 36 mg now and I really feel good. More calm, but not overly so.
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*hugs* - take it easy on your vacation ok. Good luck for the other interviews ok. Take care. Love.
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Also made curtains for my best friend's new room (she moved into studenthousing this month) and baught fabric for the regency era dress and underthings I am making and I might just cut out the fabric for the underdress tonight :p
Other than that I've done a lot of reading (pleasure reading, for a change! :D) and have been a buzy little bee but had a won-der-ful time! ^^
I don't want to go through it again either but it turned out alright and that's all that matters in the end right? I mst say the 36 are really really nice and take the edge off while not really having sideeffects and that's what I wanted in the first place ^^
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I hope you won't have to go through such a horrible experience like late Monday again. Hopefully it is indeed due to the higher dose and is that now solved with taking just the minimum one.
And of course I hope you'll get in at some other place where you would want to do your apprenticeship.
Enjoy your week off and the beautiful weather. If it's the same as in Belgium you are in for a wonderful Spring week! Ash-clouds from Iceland included.
Huggles
Gillie
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Yes, we're having the same awesome weather as you guys I think! This weekend we'll prob. Hit 20 degrees celcius! Isn't it amazing? :D It's still April people!
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(Anonymous) 2010-04-23 03:20 pm (UTC)(link)Hope you had a great day with your old friend and enjoy the weekend too! It will be indeed a wonderful and beautiful Spring weekend! In Belgium and the Netherlands! Hurray!!!!
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